||[Jun. 23rd, 2005|01:27 pm]
ok, if you scroll down enough, theres a post about my love life. well this is an update. my b/f now isnt treating me 100% the way i would like. ill just say... he... expects too much. he did something to upset me, and i broke up with him. well hes starting to be that way again. and im not liking it. ok the confusing part, is that my ex, never ever treated me bad. the worst thing we did was get into arguements. which, in the scheme of things really isnt a big deal. well, this ex of mine appeals again. but is it because of the way he treated me? is it because i truly still love him? is it because i could grow to love him again? did i just temporairly lose sight of what i saw in him? or is it simply because of what my b/f now is doing, that my ex didnt do? who is to know? see, heres a little story...|
as you know by my last post, the Never Gone album came out on the 14th. well, this ex of mine likes BSB music, so we listened to the album (he got a little emotional during "Siberia" because that song fits the situation to a T). well, a couple days later, i hung around with him again, and i was listening to the album on my discman. (i always, always have music on, im a musician) well, i took of my headphones, but turned up the volume so we could both hear. and "safest place to hide" was playing, which is a slow song. (i should add, at this point we were hugging. nothing bad, just a friend hug) anyway, since we were hugging, we were standing on my porch, and he started to slow dance, so i followed. well, after a bit i stopped looking at the tree and looked at him, and he just had the sweetest smile on his face. and i wasnt exactly frowning either. and i know, that if i didnt have my bf still, that we would have kissed. see, theres this comfort i have with him. whenever i was around him i was never scared of him taking advantage of me or anything. he is willing to give things up for me. to date, nobody else has been that way. whenever i listen to the song "Never Gone" i think of him.
what would you do?